Hello, have you ever had something go so wrong, it blew up everything you knew to be true about yourself and the world around you?  Grief does that.  It beats the crap out of you, picks you up and throws you into the new day.  Every day. 

My son was killed. It catapulted my family into a community of mourners.  It is where I live now.   If you know love, you will also know loss.  Here, I share stories of great loss, the struggles of mine and my fellow grief warriors. This is also a place of hope and discovery.  It is a place to explore how we might be able to one day whisper, Good Mourning, to our grief. 

If you are new to grief, know that although grief is an individual journey, you are not alone. Start reading my blogs, from the beginning. Where I was and you are now. And if you need someone, reach out to me. I am here for you.

  • Love & Grief by Emily P. Bingham
    by Mama Fish
    The wording on the back cover of “Love and Grief” by Emily P. Bingham, was the reason I chose this book to read. It suggested that it helps “soften the pain…and maintain a lifelong connection” to our loved ones. Emily’s grief journey began when her husband passed of cancer when he was thirty-two. She claims… Read more: Love & Grief by Emily P. Bingham
  • Grief When It Grows Up
    by Mama Fish
    When I was pregnant with Zane, I read every book I could find on how to have a healthy pregnancy, be a good mom, raise a respectful child. Not that reading prepared you for the raw details of motherhood, but no where in those manuals was a chapter on how to grieve if your child… Read more: Grief When It Grows Up
  • The Cosmos, brought to you by Mike Dooley
    by Mama Fish
    One of my on-line spiritual mentors is Mike Dooley. Before Zane was killed, I had signed up for his emails called “A Note from the Universe”-whimsical emails about life. After Zane was killed, the messages became too real as if God himself was sending them. August 8th, 2018: the day after Zane was killed. I… Read more: The Cosmos, brought to you by Mike Dooley
  • Living in The Color of Green
    by Mama Fish
    By each January, our family chooses one word they will use as their annual mantra. It aligns with where one hopes to go or feel with the opportunity of a fresh calendar year.  The word is an individual word resulting from a reflection of the past times where one thinks of all that was good. … Read more: Living in The Color of Green
  • The Little White Pill
    by Mama Fish
    I’m getting to know the new Arthur Child Cancer Care Centre at Foothills Hospital. It is a beautiful, new $50 million dollar complex that caters to the research, treatment and support of those diagnosed with cancer of any kind. I am learning that once diagnosed with cancer, one begins a battle that is life-long. I… Read more: The Little White Pill